Blogriotus - Music of the Week

Sprawl II - Arcade Fire

Keep Yourself Warm - Frightened Rabbit

NYC - Interpol

Pictures of You - The Cure

Suburban War - Arcade Fire

Bloodbuzz Ohio - The National

It's Thunder and It's Lightning - We Were Promised Jetpacks

Amputations - Death Cab For Cutie

And by the Way...

The Lost Weekends are back!

The Myth and The Reality (SBA73 on flickr)

Just a Perfect Caption

Endurance in the Thirties

30 years. I am 30 years old and I can't stop believing I am still 22. I go out, drink, smoke, cavort, get drunk at a frequency that would end my life years before I'm due, yet I feel my regeneration every morning puts me at odds with this inevitability. I reason to think I am not invincible, but at 30, I am still quite nimble, adept at the game, and definitely not slowing down. After 10 official months of a relationship that has actually spanned a full year at this point, I have realized that it's more important to find the comforts of a relationship that strive to grow, support and cherish both partners' strengths; not lambast, dwell and ultimately hinge on their weaknesses.

I have not found the strength yet to make this epiphany yet known, but I am growing in spirit to do it. Sometimes the realization that you're not appreciated for who you are comes from within, but for the most of us, it comes from some experience, event or from another you meet, that reminds you of your strengths and makes you cherish your own quality. I am not sure when, or where, mine was rediscovered, but it certainly has lead me to expand my opinions on whether one's happiness should be met, accepted or denied by external forces.

Why can't we brush past happy inconvenience and always see the strength in oneself? Why do I have to be reminded periodically? This must speak to perhaps my greatest fallibility: Self-doubt. These questions I cannot answer with any certainty. Whether I shelf my self-doubt for the time-being or permanently based on this epiphany, I cannot predict, but it sure feels good to feel good about myself again. And I'm going to nurse that for all its worth.